Who’s driving the bus for your life? Ego or Joy?

At breakfast this morning, my daughter pointed out to me that I still had my ‘Happy Holiday’ napkin holder on the table. Ha ha ha. I said, “Oh? I guess you’re right. I didn’t even notice.” I know. I know. It’s March. But it was such a small detail in my life, that I hadn’t even recognized it was still there. I’d became numb to it. I’d become accustomed to seeing it there day after day, that it’s existence was just, well, there. No emotion attached to it. It was just there. Which got me thinking. What if people were like that? What if people just existed? What if we never moved beyond our comfort zone? What if we never did anything to change ourselves? What if we never dreamed. What if we never followed those dreams? Yikes!

I’ve often felt like a non-observer of the obvious. I’ve joked many times that “I’m not very observant” (at least on the physical Earth plane). I see, feel, hear, know things others do not. I pay attention to the not-so-obvious energy that surrounds all of us. I guess I like a challenge. LOL. I connect and observe the unseen, unheard, mysterious feelings, etc. Maybe I’m ‘too busy’ observing/listening/learning from Spirit, that my soul doesn’t pay attention to the mundane? What do you think? I mean, who is it hurting if my holiday napkin holder is still on the table? I’m sorry if you’re secretly twitching :) Would that drive you bat sh!t crazy? LOL. There was a time that I was like that too. You’ve heard of the personality Type A, right? Well, I used to be much more hyper and wound up than I am today. I’d jokingly call myself Type Triple A. Thankfully, I’ve discovered the beauty and joy of slowing down and asking myself, “Does that really matter?” The more I’ve connected to my spiritual side, the more I’ve come to learn that life isn’t about obsessing over the small, mundane chores/details. Is it? Are you going to stop being my friend because I didn’t vacuum? Does it really matter that I have dishes in the sink? Are you really going to pass on lunch with your friend because the floor needs mopping?!

I had discovered that I started to put myself into this box of what I thought at the time was regular, ‘normal behavior.’ I did not realize it for a LONG TIME, that I was doing a lot of things because it seemed like that’s what I was “supposed” to do. Humans tend to do that. Humans tend to want to fit in, to belong. It’s easier, right? Or is it? Don’t rock the boat. Don’t do that, it’s scary. Don’t leave your comfort zone? What will they think? What will they say? Those little thoughts are your ego. Your ego mind wants you to stay put and be safe. Be ‘normal’. Stay in the box. Don’t change. Change is scary. Your ego’s job is to keep you safe and feel secure. Don’t break the rules. Don’t question things. Don’t cross that line in the sand. Don’t think or act outside of the ‘normal behavior’ box. That’s too scary. My question for you is this: Why not? What are you afraid of? Why not take that chance? Why not take that first scary step? Why not follow your dreams? Why not cross that line? It may be easier to do what you’ve always done. It may be easier to do what you’re ‘supposed’ to do, but is that what you really WANT want to do? What does your heart tell you? What lights you up? What makes you leap with joy? What makes you act like a 6 year old with a Spider Man t-shirt on? Do yourself a favor and stop. Take a deep breath. One more. Think about this: What do you want? Do you even know anymore? Have you been so consumed with being ‘normal’ that you don’t really have a clue as to want YOU want? So, back to my original question. Is it easier to be ‘normal?’ WHO are you right now? Are you YOU? Or, are you ‘normal?’

I will leave you with this: Who’s driving the bus for your life? Is Ego driving? Or, is Joy driving?

I choose J O Y !